Whole30?!

So, I've decided to go ahead and attempt something not so foreign to myself...a new way of eating.  Believe it or not, I had went vegan for a whole month. I needed to try it just to understand what the fuss was about. Honestly, I didn't feel better. I actually felt worse. I ate a lot of soy products which in turned helped mess up my hormones even more. I gained two things from it, self confidence and self awareness. I learned that I'm a pretty damn disciplined person. When I put my mind to things, I push forward with a vengeance. (*cough intense workouts turned to injury cough*) 

  Why Whole30? Well, it's easy to commit to 30 days and see how you feel at the end of it. I think of it as a body reboot. I'm in desperate need of a reboot. I am so exhausted all day long. My breast pain is back with a fucking vengeance and I believe I'm getting my ovarian cysts again. I'm gaining weight and not losing anything. It's time for a real change. If 30 days of eating this way can give my body a proper reboot, I'm doing it. So, with the program you're eating specific foods (mainly meat, veggies, healthy fats) in specific portions and at specific times of the day (breakfast, lunch, and dinner...no snacking!). No sugar, no alcohol (oh man...) and absolutely no dairy. Yes, this is paleo. Paleo at it's...purest?  Luckily I found a website 

that gives you a fool proof way to do the plan! Seriously, she breaks it down so ANYBODY can do it. I already printed off my grocery list! 

 Along with Whole30, I'll be hitting up the gym on a daily basis. As my darling husband pointed out to me yesterday, I need to slow down. I jump into doing something and give it 110% when I should be going 70%. I'm taking his words to heart. Incline walking/jogging and (*cringe*) using the gym machines. Why the cringe? It's been drilled into me that using gym machines is nearly pointless when free weights are were it's at. Well, for reasons of my own (mainly testing the waters) I'm going to use the machines at the YMCA. 

  I'm really looking forward to doing this. What have I got to loose? I'd be lying if I said I wasn't nervous or scared to change my eating habits. I'm a foodie! I LOVE MY FOOD! But, is the food I'm eating now really helping me, or is it causing me to be miserable. Am I addicted to the "wrong" foods? Am I mentally built to be the "in moderation" person or do I have an addictive personality? Deep fucking questions for such a simple concept. I have a feeling that this will not only change my food habits, my body and my workout habits...but also change me as a person. Wish me luck, my friends!

MO-TI-VATE!

Dear future self,
  You are doing this for a reason. Remember?! You have too many excuses! "I sprained my ankle and it still hurts" (valid enough), "eating healthy is so expensive with picky kids" (pfft, you don't have to eat what they eat, quit being lazy), "what's the point? I'll just gain it back anyway" (defeating yourself, again?! look back on your list of what to do when you start thinking that way).  Quit with the EXCUSES!!! If anything, please just MOVE! The days you don't want to move...just get up and start moving. This is our future. I don't know about you, but I'd like to be able to take trips when I'm 50, 60, hell even 70 and 80 years old!!!
  Remember when you did Crossfit and lost a shit ton of weight but managed to injure yourself all the fucking time? TAKE IT EASY! Recall, it takes TIME to get in shape *cough* (again!). Push yourself, but don't push too hard that you hurt yourself. If you are doing a workout, hey...you are much better than you are today writing this blog. Lets list what we want to achieve from starting this, yeah?

• healthier (no more breast pain, no more ovarian cysts, no more depression)
• energy (self explanatory.)
• shut up, you know you want to say "smaller waist line" we know it's true! Your husband will love you no matter what, but you gotta admit, being desirable is much more appealing (especially when you have the self confidence!) 
• self control. "just one more cookie" or "just one more drinkypoo" nope nope nope! Learn to say no to yourself and realize it's OK TO HEAR 'NO'.

We can do this. One day at a time. Today you may need to read this and feel motivated again or you may roll your eyes at yourself for posting this. Either way, love yourself and accept who you are and that sometimes you need to hear these things from yourself.